Holy longing

David speaks of ‘thirsting for Thee [God] in a dry and weary land where there is no water’. I have looked for Thee, high and low, far and wide, in solitude and in the busyness of a crowded room. As I sit here listening to an ancient faith Orthodox radio station, I am struck by the thought “what is an unbeliever”? Surely not one who desires to know You, and love you with heart, soul, mind, and strength. Neither could it be the one who strives to serve and comfort the poor and needy- for such fruits are borne by those who are born of You. Do doctrines and dogmas, creeds and confessions become the cosmic sieve that separates believing wheat from unbelieving chaff- or is it the life giving water of faith that gushes forth from the very fountain of our being? Deep calling unto deep- the Spirit and the Bride saying “come”. O Magnum Mysterium. “I looked for Him whom my soul loveth” says the bride. I am still looking, earnestly seeking, continually asking, forever searching. And this is what we are called to do- for if we say we have it all, will we continue to long for Him, who is clothed in Light inaccessible? Our doctrines, our creeds, our confessions- all are but a response to God’s first question “where are you?”.

One thought on “Holy longing

  1. Today is the Sunday of the Samaritan Woman, Saint Photini, to whom Christ spoke at the fountain. Your post reminds me of her story, and especially of the quote from John 4: 13Jesus answered and said to her, “Everyone who drinks of this water will thirst again; 14but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him shall never thirst; but the water that I will give him will become in him a well of water springing up to eternal life.” In the words of Fr Thomas Hopko, he who truly thirsts and seeks after righteousness is already saved. Seek and you shall find, says the Lord. And I am finding that there’s no end to the finding. I am so grateful for the encouragement that God and His Church gives for us who, even if we know not how to seek, want to, or at least want to want to, seek and thirst and in so doing find, according to His promise. I too can say “I believe Oh Lord, help my unbelief”. Glory to Him who is the Comforter, the Spirit of Truth, the Heavenly King.

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